to my first baby sister

 When you were tiny

and I was just a little bigger,

and we were playing with blocks

or baby dolls

or reading books and books and books,

if you ever looked up at me

the way that Lou looks at her big sister,

I hope that somewhere in the midst of being a toddler,

I let you know I felt exactly the same.

And that even now

this sisterhood that my babies are growing into

is the same one I cherish with you

and the next baby sisters. 

 It has been a magical thing

watching these two love each other.

And then realizing I've already done

just the same.

Three times over.

*These are their Hawaiian matchy matchy outfits. I may have squealed when I found them. And YES it's still winter in Utah. But matchy matchy overrules winter any day.

** While in Hawaii, our external flash died. In other words, a little part of my soul died. And my photos are going to be harsh and weird lighty for a while until we either fix or replace it.